New Day New Leaf

Today I wake in gratitude, praying off and on all night long for the answers I stilled my mind long enough to listen to them. I don't have to take two steps forward and three steps back, all I have to do is walk with integrity the first go round and there will be no back. Simple as it sounds its not always black and white, I find I have lived my life in the hazy grey and feel comfortable dwelling there. I don't want to be in the hazy grey any more I want to walk in the Sunlight of the Spirit and he has given me the answers to do that. God has been patient with me and allowed me to find the right path, and I am grateful for that also. My life is still full of pain and anguish over Moe but I feel hopefull today that I can put one foot in front of the other in the right direction and make a difference without making a compromise. Today is a New Day with a New Leaf.

Life is two steps forward three steps back

The more I progress the more I digress. Everything and nothing has changed. I am minus the booze but also minus a Brother. I go through the motions on a daily basis, realizing that the road to hell is paved with good intentions. And my intentions are good, but I do belive they have me on the road to hell. On the one hand I'm sorry because people inadvertanly get hurt, on the other hand how can I be sorry for helping those I love? 6 of one half dozen of the the other. There are never easy answers, or maybe there are and I just don't like those answers because they do not tell me what I want to hear. I think of life and know that if I don't do what I feel I need to do that things will not get done. I am the fabulous, amazing fixer of things...took that job over from my dad. Sometimes you just got to do what it takes.